I feel like a flimsy piece of vine, having been thrown into the fire and then rescued–burned and charred. Am I really good for anything? Was I ever good for anything? Because half-burned is no improvement when I once was whole.
Where, God, have I been unfaithful? If tonight was any small piece of the puzzle then, please, show me more. Even if it does hurt–its better to hurt myself then to unknowingly hurt others with my actions and words. I want this wilderness to be turned back into the rolling countryside that it was not too long ago. Where did that country life go?? Did my tame life allow me to be blinded by these sharp interjections that I bring about? Do I really not see myself for what and who I really am? Turning a blind eye to the distaste in my life? If so, then allow the wildness to continue! Let it bite back and reveal to me the faults that consume me! I don’t want to be a useless vine–I want to be a branch, one that is supported and supports those around me; healthy, loving, and providing growth. Teach me to “man up” in areas that I need to work on. I’m tired of wimping out and taking the easy way–make me stronger. But most of all, teach me Your will for my life. Interject Your wisdom into all areas and aspects of me. Bring me to a new countryside, a better one, far healthier than the one I came from. To get from point A to point B you have to take a walk. This is my walk through that wilderness.
Ezekiel 15 kinda sums it all up.
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